An Invisible Battle

A lot of illnesses or hurts can be seen, but not all of them. You can hear the coughs or sneezes, see the crutches or wheelchairs, but sometimes there’s nothing to be seen or heard.

A lot of people believe that because you can’t see anxiety, it isn’t real, it’s just an excuse.

‘You’re making it up.’

‘Get over it.’

‘Think it away.’

These phrases, and others similar to them, are most people’s quick responses to someone who mentions anxiety. I almost didn’t want to write this post, because I felt like those types of comments would be the responses that I would receive – but that eventually made me want to write it even more – to help people understand.

Anxiety is real, and for the past three years it is something that I have come face to face with. I remember the first time I experienced a true anxiety attack, sitting at my kitchen table in Alaska, suddenly feeling completely overwhelmed, my chest hurting, and my eyes filled with tears.

This doesn’t mean that I feel anxiety 100% of the time, many times I feel just fine. What it does mean, is that I can be sitting at work and for no noticeable reason my chest hurts, breathing is hard, and I’m on the verge of tears. It means sometimes I need a time out. It means sometimes I need to go outside, or drink a bunch of water, or use lavender oil. It means seeing doctors occasionally and taking medication daily. It means not always being able to go to things, because the anxiety is just too much.

There is such a stigma when it comes to anxiety and other mental disorders. My hope is that the more people are honest and vulnerable, and talk about their struggles, the more that stigma will be removed.

People may not always be able to explain to you how they’re feeling – love them anyways.

Loved one’s with anxiety can’t expect when it is going to strike – love them anyways.

Encourage your loved ones and ask questions when you don’t understand.

A friend recently shared this quote with me to describe anxiety:

‘Anxiety is always hearing the fight/boss soundtrack from movies, but never finding the enemy or the danger that the music is warning me about.’

I sincerely thank you for reading this post, and I hope it gave you a little bit of insight on life with anxiety.


4 thoughts on “An Invisible Battle

  1. You are so brave and caring to share this post! Thanks for sharing from your heart, and sharing something that can bless and help others. You challenge me, I want to be brave like you, to share the things on my heart regardless of people’s reactions. Love you!


  2. You are strong sweetie! I know this cant be easy to deal with but with God giving you the strength you need you will always be able to conquer it. I am proud of you. You have been through so much and still smile and push forward. A true example to other young women. You always have good family and friends here to lift you up in prayer and listen when you need to talk. Love you!


  3. Love you, Courtney! I’m always here to talk, dear!
    Years of battling anxiety attacks, pseudo seizures, and severe depression– i can relate to your pain. Mental illness doesn’t care how about your positive attitude, your energy, your desire to heal… it just attacks. I encountered so many times where I thought there was no hope, and no end to the pain– but it’s amazing what the grace and peace of God can do!
    love you dear,



Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s